Tonight I dreamt of you
While I still think about you
Dream of you I rarely do
But tonight I did
I dreamed of your face and your touch I did feel
Caught in a whirlwind chaos of city streets
The same tornado of emotions in my heart when I saw you in the distance, watching me
Run for my life I did
The last thing I needed is for you to make me weak
I still remember the crack you left in my soul the last time you did leave
You managed to chase me down, drag me out of my hiding, underground
I don’t know how but I knew it was to a prison, you were taking me
I couldn’t understand why, because the criminal was and had always been you and not me.
For the crime of loving me incomplete, for choosing the normalcies of this world instead of a mad journey with me.
I should be condemning you to serve me. But in my dream I find a jury sentencing me
Am I to be thrown on burning coals or be torn limb from limb
I await my fate as I see you twirl your fingers in anticipation or is it agony ??
The decision is taken, they are coming to get me.
You throw me to the wolves yet why do I still count on you to save me
I throw myself at you, embrace me ,save me
Will you save me?
Just like that everything fades
Except you and me
Don’t try to pull away, not yet
Steady
Let me hear your heart beat heavy
Is this still a dream? how so real it seems
I smell the scent of your body
My lips along the side of your neck
Inhaling deeply
Salty sweet sweat and your veins throbbing underneath
I awake, I try to see if it’s you sleeping next to me
Was that real or just a distant buried memory
a memory
The time when you took me in ur arms, but did I consent?
I knew it was the ruin of both of us but did I resent ?
The answers to questions raise more questions, never satisfy
Just like if you still shred open my heart, in some bleak corner, my love for you
you may still find
A place so dark cold miserable I do not dare wander
such distant places of my memory land
A land where your face, your scent, your touch linger in the shadows
After all this time I dreamt of you, why do I still dream of you. Why must you after all this time still torment me. Why must you !
