Hanging by a thread.

by CountlessMoments   Jan 5, 2019


I thought 2019 would be lit
Leaving all the bullsh*t behind
“New year, new me” kind of sh*t
Not a thought to rewind.

As I lay here in the dark
These dark thoughts rush through my head
It’s the same old shit
And the same old lies you’ve said.

I held back tears
As my heart continues to ache
I don’t know why I do this to myself
When will I ever wake.

I’m constantly living this lie
Of being the happiest person
I’m so broken, my eyes are swollen
Outside I’m alive, inside i have died.

I’m hanging by a thread
I want in but I want out
I’m afraid, so I hide
But literally, I’m screaming inside.

01/05/19 @ 0713hrs.

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  • 5 years ago

    by Milly Hayward

    Im really sorry to hear that your having such very dark start to the New year. Sending you a big warm hug and all my hopes that things get better for you.

    I dont know your circumstances but if it helps...sometimes the only way out of the pits of hell (where nothing changes) is to make change happen yourself.
    Sometimes you need to close a few doors and for others to open. Take care and dont give up hope. Milly x

  • 5 years ago

    by Poet on the Piano

    I hate that you're going through this, or that anyone has to have those dark thoughts. I hate when they return, especially when we think things are changing.

    I hope writing this helped serve as a release. The new year is difficult for many, and I can say at least for me, I never do any resolutions or put too much pressure in myself because I sometimes have to live day by day. It's too much to worry if this year will be completely different because sometimes things still haunt us, and the best we can do is try to cope with it.

    Wishing you the best. Keep holding on.

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