Great Grandpa

Yesterday, he was unresponsive. We get a call about 3:15 today saying he passed away...My grandma is sitting there talking to him and it is so sad. I can't grasp it... I am sitting at the foot of his bed where he is still laying gone. Forever. I'm trying to put a smile on my face but I can't so many memories washed down the drain.
He would want me to remember the good times and not to sad. It hurts to just know that I can't turn to him anymore. I do know that he is in heaven with the other loved ones who have passed. He is pale, cold to the touch. So many words I want to say but physically can't. This is the down fall for me. My eyes filled with tears begging for five more minutes just to tell him everything I need to but I know he is gone. I want him back so bad. My heart really hurts. My mind confusing me, my stomach is so twisted... Everything is a mess. I miss you grandpa, and I love you.
I wish I could have been here holding your hand.. Only if I had five more minutes to just even talk to you. You know that We love you and that I remember all of the good times we had together.... Watch over us please.