nothing's wrong

I slip quietly from conversations
to taste the lonely air outside
Human company in short durations
But sometimes I need to hide

I carry a sadness in my throat
And it wants to come whispering out
In terrifyingly solemn notes
Polluting the air with its sound

I let things grow inside of my head
That no-one should have to endure
A monster sleeps on top of my bed
And nobody carries a cure

Slicing through skin to welcome a sea
Hiding the damage that comes with relief
Worrying whether someone might see
And reject me because of my grief

I'm foolish to think that no-one would mind
If I disappeared in the dawn
I should have known that it wasn't the time
You notice things most when they're gone

A single goodbye makes the world explode
But I cry in the night so nobody knows
I wish there was someone to carry my load
But with all of my thoughts I'm alone

If I empty my tears all over the page
Try to express things that cause me pain
Swallow my fears with buckets of rage
Would you tell me I seem sane?

Sanity stays when you keep your bliss
Madness creeps in where you'll notice it
Don't let it know that I told you this
But sometimes I miss it a little bit

When I'm alone I gain creativity
When I'm with others I stifle myself
Loneliness gives me a sense of security
So I hide from the people who'd help

I slip quietly from conversations
to taste the lonely air outside
Human company in short durations
But sometimes I need to hide

- Obscure
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