The loving wife of an unfaithful man

Why wasn't I good enough?
I'll probably never be
Too busy chasing pussy
When all I wanted was for you to chase me.

I tried to give you the world
So we could share it together,
But I guess sneaking around made the adrenaline better.
And now I see you were only in love with me until you found someone wetter.

I didn't want to chain you
Felt safe with all the freedom that I gave you.
I caught you in my cage,
But I never locked it.
Let the key fall right out of my pocket
Let my guard down, forgot about and lost it.
Never thought that one day I would want it.

I lie awake at night now that your skeletons have fallen out of the closet.
They dance around my head waiting to strike fear in my heart
About where you really are everytime that we're apart.

It wasn't suppose to go like this, this wasnt the plan.
You were suppose to be different from everyone in the past
How can someone that always makes me smile and laugh
Be the same one who hurt me so bad?

You were my Knight in shining armour
You saved me from this tower
Then I slowly lost you with each passing hour
With each passing temptress that threatened to take you away
I dont know why I thought you'd ever be faithful to me.

Now I'm left here to question,
Is this love, is this real, is this my reality?
Can I pretend it never happened?
How do I make it go away?
Is it worse to sit in silence or give up on my happiness?
Are you even still my happy place?

My love, my world, you're everything to me
Now my world is crumbling, and I'm drowning in the sea.
A sea of questions in my mind,
pure and constant anxiety.

Do you still love me? Even when I am away?
Can we still go on? Will it ever be okay?
Do we rekindle our love or rekindle my broken spirit?
Time heals all wounds but it still hurts every time I hear it.

Everytime I think, feel, see it. How can I just leave it?
I still dont want to believe it.
I hope one day that I can,
And maybe one day you'll understand what it's like to be the loving wife of an unfaithful man.