First of all, welcome to this site. I hope PnQ becomes somewhere where you can write without restrictions and in a way, allow a release.

Second, this poem hit me like wind to the lungs. The apathy of it yet the plea to not exist, I have felt that so loudly before. And it's cruel when it is an unceasing thought. If this is true and how you consistently feel, I send all my support and hope there is a little light or an opening of hope around the corner.

Your words reminded me of when people mourn for those lost yet don't realize the pain and suffering this persom went through when they were living. It's like that scream and yearning for someone to see and validate us, to not treat us like we're joking or brush us aside or pretend.

Know you have a community here in PnQ who gives support without judgment. I hope the pain eases soon and that you find the little joys in each breath.

Take care <3

Welcome to pnq... this poem will touch and relate to a lot of people ... life gets tough for thousands over the world feel free to express everything th have deep inside and always remember your not alone...

Raw write.

I understand this Feel the same way well written