My Sanity; You Stole

Trying to figure out my mind
All the thoughts that's going through
Trying to understand
Why the hell i fell for you

Everything you did
Everything you'd say
I believed it all
I thought we'd be okay

Why didn't i walk away from you
The first time that it showed
Why did i stand by your side
When you showed me you were cold

You made me fall in love with you
You made me feel it all
Then you took me and you broke me
When you put me on the floor

My tears would fall; you wouldn't blink
You'd leave me torn apart
Then you'd tell me that you loved me
Asked if we could go back to the start

Every single time you told me
You wouldn't hurt me; not again
Over again, i would believe you
I trusted every word you said

You'd put me down and break my spirit
With everything i did
Nothing was ever good enough
And your cruel words would always win

If i spoke up, you'd step me back
And put me in my place
If i didn't do it though
Myself I'd have to brace

Every time you'd lay a hand
I'd close my eyes and wait
I never knew what would happen
Weather it would be in love or hate

I sacrificed so much for you
My life, my heart, my soul
And every one you ripped apart
My sanity; you stole

The way you made me feel
Was worthless; ill admit
But every time i stood by you
To your words i would commit

Though i tried; i fought it hard
I tried to free myself from you
But your words, they'd echo in my head
I felt there was nothing i could do

Slowly, i know inside i died
I hid myself away
I pulled away from all my friends
And by your side I'd stay

But i wasn't me, not anymore
I don't know when i disappeared
All i know is you destroyed me
And i became everything i feared

I don't know when you took away
The part of me that cared
I don't know when you convinced me
That what i got was fair

I guess i was too scared to leave
To scared of what you'd do
Until the day i stood back up
And fought back at you

13/04/19