Impossible?

You don't know what you do to me
And I'm not sure I can explain
How much I still love you
And it's driving me insane

I know you don't believe me
I know your heart I broke
I know that once I left your side
You lost all sense of hope

The years went by without a word
But know you were always there with me
You encouraged me to keep on fighting
When the future I couldn't see

To many times I wished for you
To be back by my side
So many times I broke for you
But from you i'd always hide

I'd cry myself to sleep at night
Knowing I never fought for you
I tried so hard to let you go
What else could I do

I thought you didn't want me
I thought you were better without me there
I thought you would be happier
I thought you wouldn't care

But I couldn't stand it anymore
I had to know you were okay
Those feelings that I fought so hard
I knew were there to stay

But I kept you at a distance
I couldn't break your heart again
So I hid it all from you
I couldn't let you in

The walls I built; I kept them up
I didn't want to show
That inside I died for you
But I couldn't let you know

Slowly those bricks that I laid down
Began to fall away
Still I fought, to keep them up
I had to make them stay

But every time I heard your voice
It made me melt inside
And every time I heard your name
My smile I had to hide

I didn't want to let you know
That i was still so in love with you
But it didn't matter what i did
I could tell somehow you knew

I know that you don't understand
How I can feel the way I do
I know that you don't understand
Why I can't let go of you

You tell me you're not perfect
That your flaws should make me turn away
But believe me baby; that's not true
And I Promise I'm here to stay

No matter what you say to me
And no matter what you do
I'll never want you to be someone else
Someone that isn't you

I wish that I could see your smile
Every time we spoke
I wish that I could hold your hand
To give you just a little hope

I've been so far away from you
When all I wants to hold you near
To hold your hand and walk with you
And to wipe away your tears

To feel every single part of you
That you say you hate so much
To love you and to prove to you
With every single touch

I know our loves forbidden
But that doesn't mean that it's not there
Forever; you'll hold a part of me
I know a love like ours is rare

And I know that I can't heal your heart
But I swear, I'll try one day; you'll see
And to finally feel you by my side
Will bring me to my knees

I know it seems impossible
I know it seems an endless fight
But I promise you I won't give up
I know one day we'll make this right

15/4/19