I'm Sorry

I'm sorry;
For the things I say, for making you feel that I don't care
For letting you down once again, I know it isn't fair
For always second guessing, every single word you say
For making you believe I don't want to stay
For the time that I broke your heart, that promise that I broke
For when I walked away from you and not giving you a choice
For every time I made you feel, that you were in this all alone
And for every time I made you cry, for that part of you I stole
For all those times that I got mad, when all you wanted was the truth
For when I told you I'd given up and you thought I meant on you
For not standing by your side, when you needed me the most
And for when I cut you from my life when all you wanted was to be close
For every single time that I shut down on you
For when I start to pull away and your left without a clue
For telling you I gave up on love, when I know that you love me
For thinking I'm never good enough, for always thinking you will leave
For when I ran away again, after you told me how you feel
For not staying close and fighting, for not letting these wounds heal
For every time I break again when I know your breaking too
For not always being there and standing by you
For telling you too late, about how I feel for you
And for breaking you over again with everything I do
For when I show that side of me, that I don't want you to know
For being a burden on you, and for this pain never letting go
For everything I say and do; not enough or just too much
For every single time I craved the feeling of your touch
For every single time I let her beat me down
For not reaching out to you, for letting myself drown
For when I told you, that I will never try again
For never wanting to have to go through all that pain
For making you feel like I was leaving you, making those tears fall down your face
When all I wanted was to give you just a little space
For every night I left you wondering, if I loved you or not
For every time I stepped back from you and left you on the spot
For always giving in to this war inside my head
For not fighting hard enough, for letting her win again instead
For every time I don't believe, I deserve to be here too
And for every time I made you angry for not listening to you

I could go on forever, I could give you every reason why
I could tell you everything, but again I'd only make you cry

But there is one thing I will never be sorry for, no matter what I do
I'm not sorry I gave you my heart and I'm not sorry I love you

27/04/2019