Mindf#!$ed

Darkness inside
Cold, friggin solitude
The mind once so optimistic
Is troubled, lost and unsettled

Complexity and hidden hurt
Bitterness to match the cold.
Broken but in love
Confidence lacking
Self esteem gone.

If I give my all.
It gets shoved back in my face
That though I'm.a great person
Theres things I lack.

How. Do I fix and rebuild when all I feel is shut down and dead inside. Maybe one day ill figure it out
And be enough for she who I love.