Why now?
Why this emptiness?
I cry and plead as this blackness takes over me..
I can not move without summoning chaos.
I just drag everyone down, and this wasn’t a game where everyone won.
I never wanted to run in any competition.
I try to do the right thing but things keep going wrong.
I’m stuck inside my head...
And now all I want is to rest as I’m undead.
Undid my threads and loosened up my breaths..
I didn’t know how to make it hurt less.
Preparing for the final press that will leave me heartless.
But the torment has barely even started.
Parted through the green grass as I detach to nothing left..
Dread reads through my eyes as I don’t reply.
Time ticking by as I make an appointment in the sky.
When I die, what all dies..
The fake love cries, the manipulated lies, the empty phone lines.
Will my pain rain like burden for the ones I leave behind.
I want to die.. I feel like I should die...
This is the first time I’ve written out a cry for help since I was 17.
The demons are screaming at me..
I hear them screaming for me!!
I hear them calling my name as I am hit through like a blank gaze.
I made the most out of how I was played.
I’m what you made..
It all got to me!
These demons inside took over me...
They took my sight..
My light..
My pleasant dreams I reached for at night.
I’m marked..
I wear it as my sign.
It says it’s time..
It’s time!!
I go forward as I lose my mind.
My kind heart lost its ring for life.
I’m broken and now I can’t remember why..
I’m just like this now.
I cry out loud but all I hear is kill her now...
