I can’t relate, of course I can’t but this poem was incredibly forceful, and possibly one of the best poems I’ve ever read on this site. The wording is deliberate, sincere, harsh, honest.
I really really can’t imagine either, the difficulty of having this procedure, the removal of potential life from your body whilst your children sit around you. Whilst your partner and you ‘connect’. You paint the feelings of insecurity and inadequacy so well. We all have these emotions, we all feel ‘not good enough’ from time to time and when we write about it, sometimes it’s a little ‘woe-is-me’ but it’s the complete self awareness in your poetry that prevents this from ever happening. You don’t tell the reader to feel pity, you just tell them what it is. You don’t ask the reader for reaffirmation of your worth, you know it, it’s there in your writing. It’s powerful and confident. Excellent.