Because of You

I miss waking up
to your good morning texts.
I miss being held
in your arms
while I cried.
I miss spending time
with you.
I miss knowing
you were mine.
I miss the good times
we had together.
I miss being comforted
by you.
I miss everything,
yet you've hurt me
so badly.
But I need to realize
those nights
I was crying at night
because of you.
I broke down at bars
because of you.
I didn't get to see my friends
because of you.
We didn't do things
because of you.
I was held back
because of you.
I need to get over you,
but it has been impossible.
For some reason
despite everything you did
I still love you.
I still want to see you.
I still want to be yours.
I still wish you hadn't done this.
I still cry over you.
I'm so broken
because of what you did to me.
When will this pain stop?