falling pills

I thought i was getting better
I thought every thing was OK but its just bitter
I renumber my past like its a ghost haunting me
pills falling to the floor as i try to flee
its been five years but when i got the pills
i was still
my thoughts went wild
i smiled
as tears run down my face
i went to a hiding place
after all i have done over the years
i still fear
what could have been
i manged to win
this time i will not take them
i will not go numb
i will fight even though its so hard
because now i have some one to live for i will put up my guard