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by IzL Sep 17, 2019 category : Sadness, depression / lost relationships
I see him here, Blonde hair and green/blue eyes. I see him here His laughter and being abnoxious. I see him him here Smiling and holding me- telling me he absolutely loves me I see him here smiling and little shadows behind his eyes. I see him here while tears run down my face and hes holding me. I see him here While he slowly wastes away..letting the demons win. I see him here, Black fingers, alcohol breath, needles I see him here but he's getting far....can't quite reach my green/blue eyes. I see him here ...wait, who is this? I see him here Asking for help, Spark of blue and green in his eyes... Hes coming back- Hes fighting The monsters sometimes pull him back but I see him here by my side. Dont let them get the ones you love I see him here and I want him here but maybe not quite by my side. Everytime ge falls a little piece inside me dies. The cycle has happened so often that I'mafraid of loosing hope...of loosing him yet again- I see him here and I hope that by the time get gets it right - he'll see me there but should i not be by his side I hope he's gotten it right.