Faded Away

I am so sorry that I have faded away
I just did not know what else to do
You always made me laugh every day
But I had nothing to give back to you

See I have spent my whole life in debt
Never being able to give back enough
Of that I will never let myself forget
Sometimes life is just too damn tough

I cannot expect for you to like me
As I hate myself and I always will
Friends is what I really wanted us to be
But I am afraid I do not possess that skill

I can be the girl who makes you smile
But when you cannot see me, I am crying
I can also at times be overly hostile
It is because inside I am already dying

I want to fly away from all of this
Leave this cruel and ugly world behind
I Dream of falling into a dark abyss
Having all memories wiped from my mind

Bad thoughts penetrate deep into my brain
My soul is lost, my heart is broken
Too much shit for me to possibly explain
So these words must lie forever unspoken

So now I must bid you a last farewell friend
I hope you find people much better that I
I am glad I got to know you before my end
And now I am ready to tell you goodbye