My Life

Emotional pain hurts so much more than any cut
A deep never ending trauma right down in your gut

I was the funny girl who did well all through school
I had plenty of friends and my peers thought me cool

I never knew that my life would end up going this way
That at nineteen I would wish to be dead every day

I had so many hopes and dreams of a future so bright
But now that seems to have gone right out of sight

All of a sudden my monster, depression chose to attack
I quickly learned that no one was there to get my back

I was alone, scared and vulnerable in a depressive hell
But when I searched around, there was no one there to tell

People lose interest when you’re not always having fun
I had to realize that my life was slowly becoming undone

Nineteen years old stuck on different kinds of medication
Trying hard to escape from all of my impending frustration

Most days now I do nothing except sit in the dark crying
I have also become obsessed with the thought of dying

I do not want to be labeled anti-social but that is what I am
I no longer care about how I look, in fact I do not give a damn

I never believed that the Prozac needing teenager would be me
But unfortunately somewhere along the line that became my reality