WITHOUT TIME

Sometimes we fallow our hearts sometimes we fallow our dreams, whatever the path leads you to just know it should set you free. Time can heal all wounds they say but what about a broken mind, now thats a hell of a wound you wouldnt want to leave behind. My heart it beats so fast tonight yet I dont think i feel it at all, is that because its broken or because it shrunk too small. See when i get hurt my heart doesn't break it just shrinks until i cant feel, to protect myself from reality and feeling the pain that is oh so real. So i sit here with a heart that shrank and a mind too broken to thank, yes I said thank cause I cant think, my vocabulary is about to stink. I notice I live in this pattern, I find a guy, make him fall in love, then break him away so slowly, I do this cause why I ask you? Cause I'm still never knowing. Do i even love myself? Cause ive heard you gotta do that first before god will come out and help. Do i know what real love is yet or have I just been practicing? Have i not reached the right one in love? Do i ever know what's happening? So many questions and no answers given right away, time is the only answer cause time is the only thing that ever stays.