Lately,
Lately I feel stuck.
Under you.
With you.
On you.
Under you.
I can’t move quite right to your rhythm which isn’t my own.
Some days I fall away.
Either utterly mindless, or enveloped in thought.
Recurrent ideas.
Does his love feel me on these days?
His bright light, does it reach toward me?
Love has the power to ruin you.
Not like self hate, which always does.
He is what changed everything.
Who I am.
Who I want to be.
How I’m getting there.
He is the key to all of it.
And lately I realize, I don’t belong to you anymore.
