God of Carnage

Judging Comment:
After the first time I read this poems, I sat for few minutes taking it in. The second time I read it, I got chills. With every part of this, something slid in. A picture, a memory, a thought a feeling. The poem turned into something completely different. And I wander, how it felt writing this. And then I read the description, and realize that this is something out of the poets comfort zone in writing.
What a genius title and ending line, in describing mental illnesses. Whether it is depression or anything else. The deprivation it causes, takes away the light of life.
“your world shatters when you learn,
the thief is a neighbor your stomach
churns itself in disgust”
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This part made me feel that someone close must’ve affected you greatly in your past. L
Also the apology at the end showed how mature you became, not getting over this something but dealing with it. And that you understand people who suffered what you did.
By the way your choice of category is very interesting.

This was an emotional piece, and I really enjoyed reading it. Thank you.

How can one have words? I want to keep reading this, over and over, because there is such depth in your words and I keep finding new meaning in them.

This piece was consistent in its imagery, without being too weighed down by it. And the idea behind being harvested, what I assume your dreams and aspirations, hollowed out... that is chilling. A thief, indeed.

"there is no survival here.
there is no room for growth,
the sun was bled dry."

- My favorites lines by far, this is almost read as an assertion, and the sun being bled dry as proof. It also felt very apocalyptic to me, and only highlighting the desolation.

You talking to the "next victim", acknowledging the impact of this demon on the both of you, and the aftermath of what I perceive to be a trauma... it's all so isolating. Especially when you mention shame, because shame can make you feel like you have been stripped of a voice. That you cannot carry on.

Interesting line of French at the end - "madness to many"?

This piece resonated with me on the level of depression or mental illness being personified into this ravenous monster that will stop at nothing. It empties you out until you only have dread. Nothing else can be harvested, the gifts/fruits of hope, anything you look forward to, is destroyed. It will stop at nothing to devour you.

I keep coming back to the first stanza, the truth of how much we carry in our hearts. How heavy it is yet how we feel we cannot break down because others depend on us, others need us at least trying. So we keep carrying this hurt, unable to bury it or transfer it elsewhere, and it continues to leave us drained and continues to remind us of the void.

Added to my favorites. I don't have more words at the time but this poem of yours, this one truly may be my favorite.