Submissive.

It's quiet here with you
when the world outside, and in my mind,
is too cacophonous.
You make this life significant,
our hidden desires revealed in
such irreverent ways.

But I trust you,
and for so long,
I couldn't trust myself.

You are the voice that grounds me,
demanding that I never hurt myself again,
because pain can be pleasant but
not in the way I begged for it.
My insides were raw and ravaged
and I never let them heal.

You surfaced me,
waited with me until skin mended;
I don't need pain the same
way anymore.

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Recently watched the movie "Secretary" with James Spader and Maggie Gyllenhaal and I cannot stop thinking about it.