How many times have I been here?
Once again I'm trapped in the dark desolate corner of my mind.
I thought I found my escape in the chemicals
but instead I was only reinforcing my solitude.
You were supposed to save me but instead you have
deserted me.
Now you're nothing to me, a fading memory.
You only resurface when I finally get a glimmer of
Hope,
Stomping it out until I have nothing left but your memory.
Why did I get stuck with you?
Why did I deal with you for so long?
Why do you still get to me?
Why?
Why?
Why?
Im not sure what to tell you. I can only say that solitude isn’t bad. Solitude and loneliness are two different things. Feeling lonely is not a good feeling;however, you can be alone in solitude and not feel lonely at all. Solitude allows one to connect with our thoughts and at times to meditate about our life. It helps to clear our minds and see our life from another perspective. I hope you can find the answer to your question of why, but above all I hope you find peace.