Some days
I am okay,
but other days
I wish I had killed myself.
Today is one
of the bad days.
I feel
so useless
despite the fact
that I have so much
going for me right now.
Next month,
I graduate college,
and I think
with departmental honors.
The month after that,
I start a full-time job
at a huge company
my dad worked at
20 years ago.
I'm looking for apartments,
and I am lucky enough
to have a budget
that allows me
to live on my own.
I have amazing friends
who make life
so much better.
Yet at the end of the day
I feel empty inside.
The void is gaping.
Emotionally,
I am damaged.
I should be happy
right now,
but I'm not.
Some days
I just wish
I had ended it
that night
because I feel
so much pain
every single day.
