Salty Shade of Blue

Body slams against a wall
soaked with tears of a woman
before me-
paint chips mold with skin
and I turn a salty shade of blue.

Drowning within ocean's of hands
tossing me like a rag doll
as fish swim by, nibbling at my toes.

You ever feel the weight
of a noose in the night
when all you hear is silence,
and you think nobody loves you?

Lips turn blue
as you invite death in
for a cup of Joe
and small talk-

Depression coils around
your legs like an anaconda at feeding time,
(just another meal)
mother of trees let me die-

then you wake up by the beach,
sipping a cup of java
asking yourself "was that a dream" ?

as I drop another Xanax in my coffee for flavor.