A few months after we got together my dog ran away.
I’d taken my eyes off of him for five seconds and boom-
He was gone.
We searched the entire apartment complex,
My dad hopped in the Jeep and went looking and I?
I was a complete and total mess.
I’d been pregnant at the time;
It was so easy for me to forget things and even easier for my emotions to flare up beyond my control.
My dad brought diesel home about a half hour later after finding him a few blocks away-
On his way home from wherever he had run off to.
I’d started crying and hugged my dog so tight and looked up at you;
With those beautiful blue eyes and open arms you’d been holding out for me to walk into.
I stood up and hugged you,
Nuzzling my face in your neck as I wet the collar of your shirt with my tears and held back the sobs of being scared of losing the animal that meant so much to me.
You’d kissed my forehead and told me it was okay.
Now;
Diesel is laying at my feet curled in a happy fluffy puppy ball and...
Where are you?
You’re never here anymore.
And those hugs?
I never get them anymore.
And my heart?
My heart really hurts because of it.
