A Simple Request

It clenches my heart.
It makes me shake.
It’s way too much.
Too much to take.

I want to feel pain.
To shadow the inside.
Am I breathing here?
I don’t feel alive.

I’m out of control.
Defenses are down.
Submerge me please.
Let my emotions drown.`

I feel helpless.
How’d I get here?
I’m slowly suffocating.
The future I fear.

Betrayal is so great.
It cuts me so deep.
How can I forgive?
Answers I seek.

I’m slowly falling.
Into a dark abyss.
I’m too fragile.
How do I fight this?

I feel I’ve given up.
How can I awaken?
I’ve done it once.
Or did I mistaken?

It’s hard to smile.
When I’m dead inside.
I’m a walking corpse.
What’s it like to feel alive?

I’m my own worst enemy.
The devil lives inside of me.
I’ve tried, oh have I tried.
I just can’t seem to break free.

Now…
As I lay myself down to sleep.
I pray the Lord my soul to take.
Protect it, it’s yours to keep.
Just don’t allow me to awake.