Chaos of the Mind

Drip, drop, drippity drop.
My heart beats like a ticking clock.

Oops, there goes a new cut over the old.
Have no fear no one will ever know.
My mind races in its dark abyss.
It demands to feel a love like this.

With this pain afflicted.
It feels like I'm flying.
I'm so close to the edge...
The edge of living or dying.

In my mind there's a sinister chuckle.
A rumble like thunder.
My existence swirls around this chaos.
I can't help but wonder...

What causes us to feel this kind of pain?
What happened to God watching over us?
I feel as if I'm alone in this world.
For myself I can't even trust.

That's why I have no remorse.
No one should question my actions.
If you don't understand then don't judge.
This is my way, the ultimate distraction.

One, two, three, four...
It feels like I've lost my mind.
This is as close to happiness as I get.
In this moment I feel divine.