Hindsight is 20/20

by schmetterling   Feb 12, 2020


I remember
like it was yesterday
as I begged you
to stay.
What I didn't realize
at that time
was the damage
you had caused me.
It took me months
to understand
the weight
you placed on my shoulders.
I blamed myself
for everything
when I should've
placed it on you.
It was not my fault
that you treated me
like I was a burden
to your life.
Every ounce
of the little energy
I had
went to us,
and that was
my mistake
for caring too much.
My needs
were unimportant
when it came to
making you "happy".
Your disguise
was the best
I have ever seen,
but ultimately
you revealed
what truly was beneath.
I never
want to repeat
what I felt
when I was with you.
You are
exactly what you claimed
you never wanted to be.

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  • 4 years ago

    by mossgirl19

    Leaving an abusive relationship is hard...the emotional strength required to go thru acceptance, forgiveness, and finding self worth...I hope you never doubt yourself again because you are worthy and you deserve to be happy. I enjoyed the read.

  • 4 years ago

    by Brenda

    Hindsight is indeed 20-20. I totally understand what you were saying. You never really see it as clearly until you've have had a chance to step away from it and then there is that aha moment. Nicely done-

  • 4 years ago

    by Poet on the Piano

    Those last few lines say it all. I think we can have the utmost faith and respect for someone, to the point where we can so easily blame ourselves for any break in the seams. We learn to dismiss flaws that actually hurt us, neglecting to place our self-worth first and neglecting to realize the damage is not from our own selves.

    Lots of growth in this, wisdom and self-reflection.

    "It was not my fault
    that you treated me
    like I was a burden
    to your life."

    - These lines also stayed with me. How brilliant, but still emotional and haunting, to understand we are NOT a burden. Those who treat us as such or make us think it is our own fault, well those people can add to the weight in our hearts. Especially when we are so giving of our love, time, energy etc. And it's not reciprocated or appreciated in the way we deserve.

    Thanks for sharing this emotional piece, lots of strength in this from you <3

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