Fade to Black

I felt my happiness leave.
My life began to disappear.
I felt betrayed and lost.
I continuously lived in fear.

Abuse can do powerful things.
Especially to an innocent child.
I felt unloved and used.
The depression in me ran wild.

I made a make believe life.
Nothing was as it seemed.
I hoped what happened wasn't real.
I wished it was all a dream.

The walls I've built are solid.
It was up to me to protect myself.
All my hope was washed away.
I didn't know how to ask for help.

Now I feel like I've lost control.
I ran myself straight into the ground.
My life has fully faded to black.
To these demons I remain bound.