Deteriorate

by Obscure   Mar 17, 2020


I cannot stem the evil tide
That rises from my lips
And I am cursed to wonder why
such evil can exist

Such torment, heartbreak, anguish
I've caused and caused again
Till now I fear my only wish:
To never live again

This mind is tainted far too much
For anyone to cleanse
This soul is burdened by the touch
Of past pretender friends

And thoughts that cannot be contained
seep out and poison all my days
Until I find I cannot rise
Beneath these shameful skies

I vomit ink onto a page
and hope that someone finds a way
to decode all my hopes and fears
So one day I can go away

My anger aimed at no-one else
This weapon points straight at myself
I'm bound by venom deep inside
and I don't dare to plead for help

It screeches that I have to hurt
Or things will just get that much worse
And so I hide myself away
Nothing's better if I stay

- Obscure
© 2020

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  • 4 years ago

    by Poet on the Piano

    Isn't it something that we can think we are our own worst enemies? If we get in the way of our own healing, we can be our worst critics, not allowing ourselves to forgive all our wrongdoings, no matter how much we regret them. As long as we can learn from something, I believe there can be hope still.

    "and hope that someone finds a way
    to decode all my hopes and fears"

    - I thought this was one of the most powerful lines I've read. It reads as a plea too. Just to have someone try, try and understand, try and grant some relief. Some reprieve.

    Be gentle with yourself, I'm sure it's not easy, a lot of things in this world aren't, just keep holding on. Keep writing, letting those emotions and truths spill out.

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