Struggling to define myself, I fall into an everlasting vortex of doubts and wonders
what word can embody this existence of mine, which existence itself seems to have forgotten
when matter fails to capture the core of my presence
and when science fails to put into words my essence
I fall, and I call … And call ...and call
as my voice let's go
and echoes of silence wreck the walls
But wait ...
How can the silence feel so loud?
And how can lies envelop the truth
and demand obedience in the name of truth
what am I?
I am Fear!
I am that insignificant entity overwhelmed by terror
overpowered by my bodily functions in an instant of horror
I am the echo of my heart beats pulsating throughout the shell-like body of mine
I am that moment of weakness in the eternal thread of time
I am Desire!
I am greed in time of need
I am the feeling of wanting, at times indeed
I am the sparkling glittery eyes full of dreams
which overtakes reason and calls my soul to be!
I am Curiosity!
I am that split moment of irrationality
driven by the sole purpose of escaping reality
I am knowledge, THE eternal
boundless and forever, I am abnormal
I am helplessness!
That frozen moment in time
as I cease to be I!
That unsightly stutter between my lips
as words stumble and eternally trips
I am ugliness!
That instant of pure shame
as I step back and drown in blame
I am resignation of desire
as I let go and sink, as I lose the game
I am death!
As I compel my soul to lie
fake truth as I deny
bury my heart deep inside
and kill each day a fragment as I hide
I am life!
As I resist and scream aloud
as I rebel and stand so proud
I am eternity in all its glory
I am a God ! Wait,
NOT!
I am as weak as a straw in an instant broken
yet strong as a God when truth is spoken
I am a paradox of feeling and actions
I am a complex entity of existence
I am not a name neither a number
I am not a face or an impression to be remembered
I am not a word I am not an idea
I am a universe inside a shell hidden.
I am which cannot be denied
I am the truth as raw and unshaped as real can be
I am the ugly yet beautiful reality
