Three years we’ve been together
Through the struggle and the laughter
But yet my hearts still breaking
And baby I don’t know why
It’s like my heart has gotten weak
I don’t know how to love you anymore
Especially the way you want
I’ve let myself go under
This depression is breaking me inside
I don’t know how to be happy
Losing my kids making me realize
That I’ll never have my sweet family
Our love began with a promise
One that you can no longer keep
And tearing me apart in ways I can’t comprehend
I can’t see my life without you, this is home
But sometimes I feel like I should go
Your not there for me the way I need right now
And I just blow off everything
Making you handle our life alone
Sometimes I just wanna disappear
Walk into the distance and keep going
Leaving all the pain and heartbreak
In the rear view mirror
I love you I really do
But this love just feels so suffocating
I can’t be myself anymore
This black hole just eats me up inside
I wish you knew how to be there how I need you
But I’ve realized the best of you is gone
Instead we are just shells trying to get by
Wondering around getting shit on
Never having a happy life
The man I met April, 21 2014
He has since been lost along time ago
I need him back I crave it
And as I sit alone I only have myself to blame
The tears start flowing
I don’t know what I want to come of this
I just want the first year back
