Just One Second

I've spent countless hours awake
when I should have been sleeping.
I've spent countless seconds falling
into that safe place and dreaming.

There has to be something
anything.
That will get me through this
I'd give everything.

Take my pain
take it from me.
Take my memories
then you'll see.

Nothing has been easy
my life is in shambles.
I try to build it back
then it just crumbles.

I'm not alright
I've never been.
I carry the battle scars
they just can't be seen.

I don't know myself
something took ahold of me.
It beckons me to end it all
only then can I be free.

So, for that second
I let myself dream.
The bad disappears
only to reappear again.