I Think About Other Guys

I don't know what to do
I know this cannot be right
I love you so much
but i think about other guys
I know this is wrong
for me to keep leading you on,
but I want you so much
I can't give you up
the though of you being with someone else,
tears me up inside
I like being able to say,
you're mine
but if i love you so much,
why am i doing this to you?
is it because I don't want to lose you?
because you won't be a part of my life?
am I afraid that I will lose you as a boyfriend and a friend?
why do I think about other guys?
why? why? why?
I think the answer is this
the fact that you're never there
I know you try to be
and you usually are whenever you can
but its just not enough
I need someone else
but I think its too late
heck, your not even allowed to date
so technically were not going out right?
wrong
everyone still says we are
I need someone to be there for me
good times or bad
day or middle of the night
I need someone who can stay up late
and talk on the phone
I need someone else
but I can't say goodbye
I'm still in love with you
its just...
I think about other guys too
the ones that are there for me
the guys thtat care
the guys i can talk to about anything
the guys i share everything with
the ones that are there when you aren't
I know you would be if you could
but you can't
maybe its just time to find someone new
and get over you
maybe i should wait
maybe your parents will give in
maybe you'll be allowed to date
those are all maybes
filled with false hope
it feels like i need something deffinate
but just so you know
I really do still love you