Plastered Smile

I roam this Earth with a plastered smile
As if it was made of paint
How I fool the world of my happiness
To myself I can’t
As day breaks I’m fine
I drown myself in things to do
But as darkness falls and the stars align
In the loneliness I think of you
So this time I drown myself in toxins
Anything to rid the pain I fake
The loneliness no longer accepts lies
Falling in love alone was my mistake
So I suffer in pain alone
As you live life at full
The pain seems to use me in any way
To the hurt I’m it’s tool
As I try to fake my burdened heart
That option is no longer active
I tried freeing myself of your hold
But yet I still remain captive
As day approach it may offer some comfort
My heart still turns asunder
The heavens plaster with blue skies
But yet my world rains hail and thunder
As the dawns’ light bleed into the sky
A PLASTERED SMILE marks this face
How can freedom be so close
But yet so far away
I finally had my heart to heal
Only for me to give it to you to break it
I just want to be free of you
This PLASTERED SMILE I dont want to fake it