Alone

I walk into a room with so many thoughts racing through my mind
Sometimes the simplest of things can be the most difficult

My eyes scan room the with anticipation
Can't help but wonder if anyone notices me

Silence fills the room , yet there are all these voices screaming in my ear
Echoes of laughter created by my insecurities

Nothing has happened, but for some reason I stand still fearing the worst
With each step comes hope that I don't do anything to embarrass myself

Escaping to a safe place away from people
Telling myself the words I need to hear to make it through the time being

Putting on a facade to hide my fear of rejection
Clinging to my sleeves for support, wishing I was invisible

Been told so many times it is all in my mind, but it feels so real
Screaming for help with a smile on my face, needing someone to see through it

Struggling to hide the sheer panic in my eyes
Feeling completely lost and alone in the world

A rush of relief hits once the battle is over
Dread soon follows , knowing that a new day is around the corner