Such raw emotion in this, especially with feeling like the pain is repetitive and there isn't an escape from it, when you perhaps had a handling on it, or were learning how to cope with it. Then everything is shattered. I'm so sorry, and no one deserves to be hurt in these ways. As you penned, what can be the hardest is when the pain drowns out who we are, or our own voice, and we fight to just be heard or have some other focus.

I resonate with this so much.