I, too, have wished this. And I bet many, many people on this planet have wished for the same. I am not one to always immediately be able to say, "oh but it will be worth it", because the reality is, life at time should not be as hard as it is. I can only hope for you and others to have the support needed as we navigate whatever life throws at us. It is ridiculously hard when the sorrow and pain and suffering seems endless, and when we can't have that ready smile like we may have once been able to. We can only do our best, and often, we don't know the outcome or what will be next, so we just have to cope as best we can.