You should have left.

by MarissaMistaken   Sep 11, 2020


You should have left when you found out you weren't the only one he was sleeping with, and he thought that was ok.
You should have left when you sat in a room bawling your eyes out and he ignored you, and never asked you what was wrong.
You should have left when he started shorting you on the bills.
You should have left when he threw your dogs into a wall.
You should have left when you jokingly hit him in the balls and he actually snapped your finger.
You should have left when he choked you up against a wall, leaving bruises around your neck.
You should have left when he hurt you in front of your infant son.
You should have left when he played that song.
You should have left when he began to scare you.

You should have left when he raped you.

You should have left, when he finally did.

You should have left.

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  • 4 years ago

    by xoxShorteexox

    The imagery was so powerful and empowering to see that you have helped yourself by writing this poem. Sometimes, we need to hear that it wasn't our fault especially in a situation such as this. This is a very powerful and beautifully written poem. I hope you find peace with yourself after going through all of this.

  • 4 years ago

    by Poet on the Piano

    This is utterly heartbreaking, especially with the specifics in imagery and detail... and my heart goes out to you. I think "should have"s can destroy a person, because it's not and will never be their fault. A person is not weaker for staying, I think one of the most harmful thoughts people have is when they judge someone for not being able to escape abuse, when the blame and pressure should never be on the one going through it. I hope you found strength and solace in writing this, and that your voice is heard.

    • 4 years ago

      by MarissaMistaken

      Recently, my bf of 2 and a half years left me for another women he was seeing for only a month while i was 14 weeks pregnant with our second child. He told me all these things i did wrong and made me blame myself for him leaving. He left me utterly heartbroken, mentally destroyed, financially unstable and to take care of our kids by myself. Its taken a lot for me to realize it wasnt my fault and there was nothing i could do to stop him from doing this. He chose to do it because he was selfish not because of anything i did or didnt do in pur relationship. He just filled my head with shit to maks himself feel better. Hes been with that girl for 3 months and shes already pregnant too and i havent even given birth yet. Smh. I wrote this poem about all the thing he did over the years we were together to try to remind myself that he was the bad guy in the scenario. Not me. All i ever did was try to love him. He got tired of me and threw me away like trash. Even worse he did the same to his kids. My son used to be his whole world. Idk what happened to him but i know it wasnt my fault.

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