LOVE STORY

As far as I actually remember I have never been in a relationship with someone I love ...so I assume I've never loved...
Thought it was coz I had an armour for a heart only to realise it was only coz I was scared..
Scared that I would get hurt.. that I would lose myself.. that I have lots of insecurities.. so I had to put every feeling away..
Bt no matter how much I tried I only had to come back to reality and realise that am only human...I was only cheating myself
With just a little push from my peers I decided to give it a shot..."I was on market" a phrase we used to mean single n searching...
I went with the flow ,n it drove me to the new kid..light skin,tall n shiny eyes..just my typ..n by good luck he bcam my desky..
For me it wasn't about love at first sight.. but let me say his looks all perfect.. felt like i had to get his attention.. .
But I got it since I was his first friend .. the vibes he gave me.. every time he looked at me .. they all thought I won..
Not forgetting the chocolate I got on Valentine's day and the hands that caressed my shoulders.. really got me there..
So I gave in ..waiting for a word to prove I was on the right track... "Can I ask you something" he said.. in my mind excited..i knew what was next...
So we sat n talked .. to my surprise I was wrong .. he was asking about a friend of mine.. and I knew I lost him.. acting cool about it but deep down...