This is it
That moment
You’ve been here before
That heartbeat starts to jog
Then skip
Then race
You look around and grab a sheet
You pull it to your face
You can’t breathe
You’re not dying
You just feel like you are
Now come the tears
And the choking
You need help
But you can’t scream
But you try
And fail
It has you to itself now
You belong to it
And no help will come
It owns you
Until it decides it’s had enough
They call this a panic attack
But this isn’t panic
This is fear
Not just a fear
All of it
Everything
Every nightmare
Every worry
Every heartache
Blasts across your mind
100 hells every second
You will watch
You will relive every sadness
You will feel every pain
This is Fear
And for now this is you
....
It will pass
Every experience leaves its mark
But at least no one saw this time
.....
It will happen again
You won’t expect it
It still owns you
You’ll think you’re ok
And that heartbeat
Will start to jog
