Usually when I start to text you,
I get this happy feeling,
A slight smile crosses my face,
I think of your smile,
And I can't think of anything else.
I had to stop myself today.
Something felt different.
I worried that you would frown.
I imagined disdain.
I could imagine you hit ignore.
The hesitance at seeing my name.
I had to stop today.
Something was different.
I laughed today and thought of someone else.
I felt sad today and I talked to someone else.
I went for a drive and thought of the view, and not of you.
Today I told myself to stop thinking of you because I was different
