Reality Bites

I suddenly wake although it's still night
Why am I so panicked is everything right?
With sleepy eyes I reach out for you
Your warmth I don't feel and my hand goes right through

I look in the bathroom but you are not there
No water runs and the shower is bare
Your towel is all dry and the mirror reflects
It's not fogged at all as if you just left

I walk in the kitchen and turn on a light
Though you are not here still nowhere in sight
You're not reading the paper in your comfy seat
I feel for the kettle but there is no heat

I go to our garage and both cars are inside
I slowly look over but here you don't hide
You often go jogging around the big park
And there I go looking in my car I embark

I drive very slowly with the sun that now shines
And look everywhere but still there's no sign
It's then that I hope you're at the café
The one by the beach that's not far away

I drive as I'm looking and quickly arrive
I was so anxious to see you but again am deprived
I look down the beach but the coast is all bare
Like white sands deserted and you are nowhere

The last place to look I want to ignore
But I know it holds the answer I'm looking for
I was so sure I'd find you in the usual place
I was praying so hard that I'd see your face

But as always I know that I end up here
And the reality so harsh to my biggest fear
Now standing so close but I feel so alone
Reading last words inscribed on your headstone