I don’t understand why I am this way
My world is monochromatic
The void of color in my eyes
Deprives me of my life and my oxygen
Every breath I take becomes more shallow
More agonizingly unendurable than the precedent
And all I am capable of doing in that very moment
Is watch who I am putrify into nothing but ash
A shell of my inner child
Foraging for a lone fragment of faith
For I see no god
Gods and devils walk among us everyday
What hope do I have?
What savior birthed this world just to burn it?
And watch his people drown themselves
In possessions and desires you gifted them
For illnesses you refuse to undo
You are a desecration
There are so many questions
And one lifetime is simply not nearly enough time to fathom the complexity that it is to be alive
I both cherish and execrate the life I was handed
Privileged I may be, but be who you are
We are all just wandering aimlessly
Cadging for the single shred of faith
We clutched onto so tightly as children
I do not know you
And therefore
I never will
