I'm Sorry

I tried to be there for you
when you were upset
down in the dumps
and felt like there was nothing left to live for.
I knew you were going through a rough time
and I was too
but all I wanted was to help you
because I knew what it was like to be feeling
thinking
wondering about the things that you were.
You told me everything you had
and everything you didn't have
a happy life
and wonderful friends
but either way I tried to help you out no matter how much it took
and how long it took.
I just wanted to be there for you
because I knew how hard it was to cope with the pain
the sadness
and the loneliness
in times where you felt no one was really there.
All I wanted was the best for you
because you were truly a great person, you still are
and you only deserve the best.
So I understand if you never want to talk to me
because I have made some horrible mistakes
and I wish I could take them back
but I understand where you're coming from
and I would do the exact same thing
too.
I hate myself
for what I did
what I made you feel
and what I had to put you through.
You are such a great person
And you have had a great impact in my life
In ways that are the best
And ways that no person could ever describe.
So I understand if you never want talk to me again
and I understand if you never want to hear a single word from me
But I just want you to remember
It wasn't your fault
You've done nothing wrong
And I appreciate everything you have done for me and I honestly love you for it.

*** This Poem is dedicated to Sarah K. A good friend of mine and a Superior poet. Her poems are the ones you should be reading! She was a great friend(I know inside she still is) and she was always there to listen to what I had to say through thick and thin, even if some of the things I talked about were things she didn't want to here. We're both, as young teenagers going through a really hard time and i tried to do my best and be there for her, but I really upset her and it bothers me that I did because now she feels like its her fault. So I just want her to know that nothing was her fault, she's a wonderful friend, and that I love her for being there for me! ***