What I Feel

I wish I could express, just what I feel,
My blood is cold, my veins hard as steel.

To put into words, that would help you see,
That this life I'm living, just isn't me.

I used to be so vibrant and care free,
Up in a tree, or in the rafters, I'd be.

Running in a field, swinging across rungs,
Taking life in, letting it fill my lungs.

Then everything changed, in the blink of an eye,
My world collapsed, life fell from the sky.

I've done the chemo, the pills and the shots,
Now I'm left broken, my stomach in knots.

My body hurts, like nothing I've ever known,
The pain goes deep, into the core of my bone.

There is no relief, no pills that work,
The pains are severe, they make me jerk.

I just want it to end, to be free from it all,
To return to my Goddess, to hearken her call.

03-23-14