Newfound Space

All those promises that you stitched inside my heart with love,
I wonder where they went when they withered apart?
I spent all of those years wrapped under the blanket of your dangerous unpredictability,
perhaps a part of me still is.

I finally found a place I could hide,
then at my weakest point when I needed you the most,
you snatched it all away.

You didn't even pick up the phone to say goodbye,
yet you still had the nerve to proclaim that nothing between us had changed.

Your gifts of love are no longer good enough for me.
I used to long for any sign of love from you,
but nothing came.
Now I am completely different inside and out,
I don't want anything form you at all.

I still miss our memories and how my heart once felt.
It drives me in circles between hating you and loving you,
wanting you, to wishing I had never met you.
But I am only hurting myself more by hating you.

I will never be weak enough again
to fall back into your love,
I will never again let you be
the stronger part of me.

Saffie
27

22/9/18
10.43pm