Is the first line supposed to be "pitiful"? Unless you meant it to be "pitful", perhaps to indicate a small or almost imperceptible growth/blossoming? I took this piece as wanting to grow up, fully embracing ourselves, yet getting stuck. Working on self-love and having it be a cycle that we can't seem to put an end to. And the grapple with trying to cope with reality versus what we envisioned for ourselves. Wanting better, but not knowing how to enact that. Lots to be said in this short piece, well done!