I have seen a lot of sunsets
I have seen too many sunrises
My sleep is nowhere to be found
Because i try my best to keep it away
Why you may ask?
Because it hurts
It's takes my breath away
Like i am drowning
It hurts too much
But I can't explain why
And it hurts me
I feel at peace at night looking up at the stars and the moon
I find peace in the quite of the night
That only seems to come when everyone else is asleep
In the night there is no shadows
Everything is hidden away
When the sun comes up
Everything is out in the open and the shadows hide behind every corner
My peace is at night where my dark shadows fit in with everything else
At night is where i can breath freely
as long as I dont go to bed
You may ask why?
Because it hurts too much
Old Memories come back to me
And I am caught in them all over
They can't seem to let me go
I am affraid to give in to them
But when i do
It gives my a little peace in the moment
And the next is filled with regret and pain
That i can't escape
