I replay the same songs over and over,
crying again and again,
wishing we could go back
to the only place
I ever began to feel.
Sometimes the beat on its own
reminds me I was never alone when I had you,
but I will never forget how lonely I became
when you walked away.
I often wonder if I should have invited you
to who I used to be at all,
or if it would have been better
to start off with a lie,
and see how long
I could have kept up the mask.
I warned you that I would remain quiet,
I'm sorry that my silence was too long for your patience.
Every song I hear still reminds me
of some part of you and me,
and how things could have been if you stayed.
I spent so long trying to wipe away my tears,
instead of trying to wipe away you
and all of the memories you left behind.
Maybe you would have loved me better
if I tried to change who I was,
but then I can still hear that sound
of my heart cracking loudly,
as I realised I could never make you love me
whilst you were more determined to change me.
But I guess every relationship breaks up in the end,
and we will never know why love can be so strong,
yet so suddenly disappear.
Because of you,
I will always take more than I give,
luckily there is rarely anything from anyone I want to take.
Because of you,
I will now do anything possible
to make sure I never feel this pain again.
